I’m working on one now! :3
I love LMGTFY.
You’ll be okay. Exams are silly, silly things that don’t measure anything of import. I test amazingly well, but I hate homework and I’m terrible at applying math to the real world. You messed up an essay, but you still have friends and family members who care about you and you’re still strong enough to keep fighting against your disorder.
I’m glad you wrote to me about what you’re feeling. If you’re feeling brave, I suggest sharing it with the people at WeBiteBack, who will be able to give you better advice than I can give. If not, write about the exam on a spare sheet of paper, then rip it up. Shred it. Scribble all over it. You are not the problem here.
Please eat something. It doesn’t have to be something big or scary, but please pour yourself a glass of milk or orange juice, toast a piece of bread, and remember that your exams can’t determine your life; only you can do that.
Edit: a friend of mine in the UK, who I mentioned this to, added “remind them that a lot of schools and colleges allow them to re-sit their first year if they need to, or they can resit certain exams alongside their A level exams x”
Nighttime is an awful time for a lot of people. Despite the fact that I feel much more at home at night, right around dusk is always a difficult time for me. Since high school, I’ve gone through a number of periods where, as the sun set, I’d burst out crying for no reason and revert to self-destructive behaviours. So you’re certainly not alone.
My biggest suggestion for you is to make sure you’re eating enough during the day. Binge eating is often brought on by your body’s attempt to make up for being denied something it requires. If you’re cutting way, way back, your body may go into a panic mode and take over.
If it’s more of an emotional thing, try to find ways to distract yourself. Skype with a friend, read a good book in a hot bath, or prepare a nice healthy meal for yourself. Even if you have to invite a friend over to make sure you don’t go rushing to the store to buy binge foods, a small hiccup in the process could help you “reset” the behaviour.
Also, I’ve always found journalling to be immensely helpful. If you write down how you’re feeling (what made you happy that day, what is stressing you out, are you annoyed with anyone, etc.) and mark down when you binge, you may find a pattern that you can then work on changing.
Best of luck to you!
Upper Back Lifts
- Lay your belly on the ball, spread your legs wide, and plant your toes on the floor.
- Bend your elbows and gently touch your fingertips to the back of your head. Keep your arms strong and resist the urge to rest your hands on your head.
- Take a breath in and, as you exhale, raise your upper torso as much as you can, so your chest comes off the ball. Inhale to slowly lower your torso back to the starting position. Keeping your movements slow allows you to work your abs.
- This counts as one rep. Complete three sets of 12 to 15 reps.